so, i dont really care anymore .
Posted on: Friday, February 27, 2009
Posted at: so, i dont really care anymore .
k so uhmm yeah, i thought bout it overnight ... mi really don't care no more. im just gonna bun it and do the same thing he's doing cause word, mi dont needs to waste no time on this shit. whatever, thats light. mi really needs to find someone whos hubby material, someone hos worth my time. lol, new day, new flex. well its friday, and wah pop today? run missions to see the bwoydems with the wifey ? most likely. welll its 8:15, and i have class in an hour . school is a must, so i shall go .
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TINY BALUYUT <3
mandemz are confusing
Posted on: Thursday, February 26, 2009
Posted at: mandemz are confusing
k, so uhmm .. yeah, like wtf ? me is very confused . mandemz are frustrating me . there will be shit like mi love you here and there , then the next thing you know hes up on the phone with a next cattie. wagwan freal ? why am i taking this, when i know there's some next man fully waitin up on me who can treat me better. the only thing stopping me is the fact that he hurt me so much, and that i got feelings for this next one. on the realdem, why must i be so stubborn and hard to forgive. ugh, whatever .. thats all somethin light ? naw , its bothering the hell out of me. ANYWAYS, on another note .. im catching up to my classes ? lol .. well at least i know what the fuck im doing now. its been a week and i'm already skipping and cutting class , thats not good .. like wagwan with that. NTS: stop fuckin loafting and get your life straightened, k thanks . anyways, tomorrow is friday.. weekend is comin up, and what do i have planned? nothing. wow .. first weekend to where i have completely nothing planned. friday, school + who knows where ? saturday, justin alvero's 18th birthday jam? hmm .. i should go , he went to mine .. but word, thats a mission and a half .. scarborough? kinda far y'think? sunday, homework? psh .. shore . lol .. what a great weekend. oh seannelle, where art thou? i miss that chick .. i just seen her too . no worries, tomorrow is another day, more work, and more chillin ? oh man , i need a job freal .. im loafting on that. realtalk, next week .. im gonna go apply somewhere, anywhere .. i just need money. grrr ... money is such a big issue. well , that's enough for today .. i feel kinda , frustrated and anger inside .. i need a smoke, and a smoke i shall have. lol .
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JUSTN ALVERO .
frustrated
Posted on: Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Posted at: frustrated
ughhh .. i feel so fuckin hurt , neglect, mad , sad , whatever .. anything negative possible to feel . i feel like i just my life just replayed all over again. guys are all the same, they are decieving little fuckin bitches who fuck you once they get what they want. like on the realdem, this just happened to me. i saw it coming, i actually suspected it .. but why didn't i say anything. no, i did say something, i really did this time.. i talked it out , we talked it out, everything was fine , until i started hypin and whillin. its been less than a month, no less than a week and everything fucks up already. word , relationships are clearly not for me. word, the whole mandem scene isnt for me. too much fuckin drama. ughhhh , im just so pissed off . how the fuck could i let another guy do this to me. a fuckin yute too . this whole situation just fuckninbrought down my whole self-esteem. word, now i really do think something's wrong with me. shit . to think , this all happened in a matter of less than 8 hours ago . ughhh , im frustrated like no tomorrow. change is fuckni necessary.. i let change overtake me and this is where i end up , wtf ? holys hit , the mandem just signed on and all my feelings are all fuckin mixed up and everywhere now. the moment he signed on .. i got a tear . what the fuck ?!?!?! how soft can i get ? fuck man .. i actually liked this one. i dropped 'nuff mans for him . ughhhhhhhhhhh , frustration is running through my head too much. i'm fuckin hurting .
friday the 13th .
Posted on: Friday, February 13, 2009
Posted at: friday the 13th .
ouuwee , its friday the 13th. any bad luck yet ? yuppers .. it is currently 3:43pm and seannelle has been robbed for $50 ? .. wtf , how is that possible .. gosh , waste mans now a days who try to play it offf. whatever, karma is such a bitch. in the end , he / she will get whaat they deserve. anyways .. the movie friday the 13th came out today. plans on watching it? yeah i guess .. iunno if i want to tho. certain people are going to be there .. which i feel will just continue on to cause more drama. ugh , fuck my life .. another day of not going to school. wtf am i doing wit my life. whatever, things just need to clear up a bit more, for real . ANYWAYS, so tomorrow is valentine's day. hm, do i have a valentine? i hope i do .. :) for some reason i was thinking bout the ex today tho . i feel kinda bad. with whatt everyones telling me how he's so pissed off and how he hates the new man .. damn , i feel bad. oh well , not my fault he fucked up . gosh , i need to burn right now. i just dont wanna think and feel happy and shit .. yknow ? too much going through my mind. anyways .. imma end this off here, i need to do something more productive with my time.
hmm .. :)
Posted on: Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Posted at: hmm .. :)
k so uhm , past few days were whack. more drama .. :) . fuck my life . but uhmm , i was happy too .. Lester Atienza :D ... " C'mon Trixie, yknow i loved you from the start .. " . LOL , 'dem butterflies in my stomach. finally moving on, letting go, and being happy. just a few minor adjustments in life that i'm gonna have to put up with, besides that , i'm good .
serious tip .
Posted on: Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Posted at: serious tip .
NTS: I need to go back to fuckin school. I need a job too. Fuck , I owe so much people money. Realtalk, I need to get focused and stop loafting.
bestfriend?
Posted on: Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Posted at: bestfriend?
Okay so these past few days have been so fucked up, especially yesterday. I feel like I have lost my own fuckin bestfriend. How can a small situation between two guys create such a huge problem between a girl and her own friend. Ugh, this whole situation is just so fucked up and unecessary. I'm just so pissed off, I've been so pissed off. Fuck , I can't believe I just lost my fuckin bestfriend. Just because I didn't want to choose sides, just because I decided to be neutral, just because i decided to look at both perspectives. I thought i was making the right decision to stay away from choosing sides, but no , this is what I get .. I lose one of the most important people in my fuckin life. I take so much blame for why she's so angry at me. I should've been there for her as a fuckin best friend, but why the fuck can't she fuckin understand my fuckin situation. Holy shit, this whole fuckin problem was between her and two next mans, how the fuck did i get involved? I understand i was the closest person to her at the moment, but shit.. I didn't want to get involved. Ugh, she was honestly the only one i had any trust for. After past experiences , i can't fuckin trust anyone, and she was the only one who had it. Why must I seem so emo? Why did I even create one of these blog things? Am i craving for attention right now? Am i doing this cause I feel like everyone special from me has drifted away and i just need fuckin attention. WTF? I feel so fuckin fucked up right now. I haven't even gone to school yet. What the fuck am I doing with my fuckin life. Whatever, everything's just waste. Everything just pisses me off. Everything's just fuckin whack to me.
