alright, so yesterday i had a major piss off breakdown to which i decided to let the whole blog society, well the ones who read mine at least know about all the wrong you're constantly doing. ' does pissing me off amuse you? ' was the name of the post. in crystal clear english dialect, i have exposed so many negative thoughts i have had for you. everyday my mood is constantly changing. and like i told you, just like others, i have a limit. once you've crossed that limit, i'm just going to snap and all of my emotions will just come rushing by. so why have i deleted it ? i did because i knew it was a temporary post. i had so much anger towards you that letting it all out through blog was the only way i could express myself. the only way for you to finally get the point. talking clearly didn't work, everyday we fight about the same things. constantly. and clearly, it did not get through your head. maybe if i did it publicly, maybe, just maybe you would've finally catch on, and caught on you did. so here i am right now, writting a recognition. not an apology, yet a recognition.

today was amazing. you were constantly thanking me for so many things i have given you and for so many things i have done for you. for the smallest to the largest. at first i thought to myself, is he being sarcastic? how am i supposed to respond to this? so i questioned you. you replied with, 'im so serious .. i just want you to know that i appreciate every little thing you do.' at first i thought you were just bullshitting, but clearly you werent. for the rest of the night, all you did was make me smile. we had too many laughs, although we couldve turned the other way and have taken certain issues seriously and would have ended up just getting mad at each other, we turned the other cheek and just laughed through it all the way. when we had 'realtalks', you asked me, so what now? do you want to end things? i didnt answer with a direct reply, as in no or yes, i answered agressively and said, dont fuckin ask me that. but regardless of how rude i've been treating you, your response tends to always amaze me. then things slowly turned the other way and it seemed as if things were slowly getting to the worst of things...


kyoot right? good job today. as the days go by, you seem to amaze me. you are unpredictable and thats what i love about you. does pissing me off amuse you? clearly it does, but in the end it seems to help us get to the good. you're a good guy afterall. you did change. keep doing so.