okay first off .. i shall start things with my hair . so plan was to bleach my whole head and make it brown but that kinda flopped .. so instead i just wanted the middle part . not peekaboos or not the top part but in the middle. so yeah , we bleached it and only like my roots showed up , lol fml . my hair does not want to co-operate with me . so anyways, next solution ? dye it red .. which turned out prettty damn live . the hair cut was looking pretty ugly and thick , so layers ? lol yupp .. i got layers as welll .. looks so much better now . the red is so damn bright though . thats okay , i love it. hopefully everyone else will to , actually fuck them i dont care . as long as i like it . the end . next topic girls . mkay , from the looks of things, im not the only one noticing that girls are so much motherfuckin drama .. and no i dont speak for all , but some . theres quite a few out there who are very chill and dont give a fuck and just mind their own business, yet theres those who likes to get into other peoples business and start to cause drama trauma, which is so not necessary. drama queens. not gonna lie, i have my days and im pretty dramatic .. but theres a certain limit you must reach where you know youre doing too much. freal . sometimes , i just want be with the guys and away from all that drama, bullshit, and what not. not gonna lie , i talk shit too .. just like everyone else . theres noone on the face of this eath who doesnt talk shit, cmon . we all know we do it . mostly girls , cause yknow .. we tend to gossip a lot , but whateves .. theres only so many girls that i can really trust . they dont need to be mentioned, you girlies know who you are. i love you all to death. mkay, last but not least, the ex . erick briones . we are currently not together .. i have no right to set restrictions towards you because of the fact that i am not your girlfriend . so what do i do now ? do i just watch you continue the things im bothered by ? or do i speak up ? hmmm . no . i shouldnt have to say anything. you should know what bothers me the most and what makes me unhappy. you claim that you dont want to do anything to hurt me, yet you continue to . im sure you dont notice .. well maybe you should start paying more attention to your actions. ugh, honestly , i have no trust in you whats so ever , and you know that .. just because of the past. but then again, i have to ' Realize that you have to see that pessimistic pest past before you can catch a glimpse of the future.' before i can even see a future in us again, i need to see our past and whether or not things are actually beginning to change the way you claim you have been .