so im finally home! after so long .. i feel so nice being here . its been how long ? 6 days .. without stepping a foot in this house. which is making me contemplate on whether or not i want to go to Jalen's 1st birthday. honestly , i really do want to go .. i wouldnt want to miss out on an event like this. but to add on to that .. i didnt get him anything . i dont want to just show up empty handed .. yknow ? kinda rude . i feel so comfortable here at home .. i kinda dont want to go out . but fuck , i feel so bad if i dont go . ughhhh ... we'll just have to see i guess . but as of now , im glad to be home . i think im going to go read some gossip girl and take nap .